the blue bell & the nightingale: I need a direction!

Assalamualaikum ^^

Lately i've been thinking so much about life. Up until today, i never really know what i want to be ^^ it sucks. I've been spending most of my time with my niece and nephews, watching them grow. 1 thing i know about being a children is that u have nothing to worry about. Being an adult is not easy wasn't it? to decide and to make a right decision, is giving me a headache :)

5 things you should know about Farah :

1) my first ambition in life is to be a fashion designer, but that dreams fade away after i change my mind to be a criminologist.
2) why criminologist? because i was influenced by the japanese comic, Hajime Kindaichi-Shonen no Jikenbo. also, influenced by a book written by Brian Innes- Bodies of Evidence :p until i realize my math is so suck then i started to think about something else :p

3) i am 16 when i started to think about being a writer. please blame Laura Ingall & Ramlee Awang Murshid for that. i love their writings! :D but its a big no no to me coz im no good in writing also :p

4) so here's when a growing up teenage girl try to figure out what she wanted to be. been thinking about being an animator too, but when i further my studies and having animation subject as my major, it makes me think twice :D like,,,more than twice ? :p but without a doubt, i love drawing manga :D

*sketch to kill time? :p

5) so like as many of u know, i love photography. but that will only stick as hobby i guess. For this time being, I wanted so much to have a bakery house as cute as the Etude House :p lately after i finished study, i've been spending time experimenting cupcakes, brownies etc. One best thing after doing all the experiments, is the outcome , it might not be pretty as they should be, but it's a satisfaction seeing my niece n nephews comes to me and ask for a second one :D